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Vocations, E-Zines and Men!

I've been thinking recently about my vocation. I mean, Hannah and Tess are both pretty certain they're going to be nuns, but I don't feel like God's told me what He wants me to do. I mean, I have all these plans about becoming a teacher, getting married, having a traditionally huge Catholic family and raising them all as Catholics - but I mean, how can I be sure that this is what God wants? It's what I want, but is it God's will? I want to do His will. I really, really do. I keep telling Him that but I'm so useless at listening to Him that I can't be sure what He wants! I'll have to keep praying, I know, but I'm so impatient!

Another thing is that I wanted to start up some kind of e-zine on livejournal or some other blog website because there's a gap in the market and everything - I've never really come across a Catholic magazine for young people - but I can't remember for the life of me all the ideas I had! It's so annoying! It was just gonna be a little something, you know, just to help young Catholics with their faith, and just little old me maintaining it but it's no use if I can't remember! How annoying!! Please God inspire me again!

You know, a few years ago, if someone had said I would find someone's faith attractive, I would have laughed in their face. But that's what's happened - I've found someone so perfect for me, the kind of man I've always dreamed of finding ... there's just one problem: I can't talk to him!! Oh God, please give me the courage to say something! Anything! What the heck is wrong with me?!

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keiscorner
Apr. 12th, 2006 10:08 pm (UTC)
Oh my Lord and my God! ;) I am sure that God will help you to find the words; just let the Holy Spirit within you flow. We all will find ourselves in God's time, even if it seems like a long time to us.

If he's Christian, add in the Ecclesiastes 4:11 line, although it's better when guys do it :P. "And if two lie together, they shall warm one another: how shall one alone be warmed?". Oh, and do a grinny-eyebrow-cocking action as you say it. :D

Just wait, and wait... and wait some more. You see, I too am under discernment of priesthood, but it ain't going so well, knowing that I'm still sinful no matter what I do. And some habits are harder to break... But I have complete faith in Him, through His promises in Matthew 16:18-19, through His Holy Eucharist of John 6:57, and through His love in 1 John 4:7-8. I hope that you will experience goodness, because Yahweh will always be there, husband or no husband. :D
blackvengeance
Apr. 17th, 2006 09:23 am (UTC)
Thanks for that :-) I can't actually imagine myself saying that to him, but as you said, I will wait because, as you pointed out, God will always be there. I'm slowly coming to understand that I've told God that I will do whatever he wants, so if it's meant to be it'll be, I guess.
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